bkit ganito ang buhy? the educator in me..
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
i don't know what to say now. i even can't understand what i feel. maybe knowing that you and the person most close to your heart are having similar problems is kinda hard to bear. i feel happy that so far i've only got one low score on the tests, anyway there are 5 more but when i think of other things, like the problems at home the good results of the exams can't fill the feeling of emptiness.
i really don't know what to do so i try not to think of my problems and focus more on my studies but still i can't concentrate. i hope that everything will be fine and live my life day after day.
ang hirap tlga nung pkirmdm n ayw mong umuwi kc unti-unti, lalong sumasama ung pakikitungo mo sa ksma m s bhy. mgkaron k nga lng ng kglit ang hirp n un p kyang sa isng bubong lng kyo nktira??
bad3p! syet tlg!
pero khit anu mngyyri di ako su2ko bsta nanjan ang 3C (special mention mabs) alm ko khit maloko tyo pwede nting asahan ang isa't-isa(clap3x).. matouch nmn kyo!!! hehe.
pero seryoso totoo tlg ung kasabihang aanhin mo pa ang bhy n bato kung ang nktira nmn dito ay isang (nilalang n mas malala pa sa) kuwago.
di ko kklimutn ung isng bgy n natutunan ko sa mama ko: mas mhlga n mrunong kang makisama/makipagkapwa-tao kesa sa perang nasa bulsa mo..
ok class dismissed!
joel grooved on the dance floor
@ 3:45 PM
some diections huh?!?
Tuesday, August 03, 2004
last tue b4 abpsych i read the pax romana bulletin board near rum 316. there if ound a motivation to study, to work hard, to live.. it inspired me to increase my positive outlook on life and it helped me loosen up, relax. it helped me to control my temper..
last sun i watched TV mass on studio23 and i was hit by the priest's homily. he taught me that the true riches in life cannot be measured with money or prestige. i'm glad i have enough people around me who care and love like my friends and family. and just by thinkin of them i will not think of doin bad things to myself.. thanks to all of you! most specially, mabelle..
joel grooved on the dance floor
@ 7:13 PM
points of authority
Monday, August 02, 2004
i'm happy i've changed my being irritable and bad-tempered but still the problem at home is not solved, i'm afraid it wud never be..
most of us look forward to the weekend but i don't. it's not that i always want to be in skul and be wid my girl, well u can say that, but the greater reason is that at home there's no sign of hapiness. it's not easy losing a mom so to all of you, love your parents even if they suck, even if they are the most KJ parents that ever lived in this world. u won't miss the water till the well runs dry..
at first it was all going well but when my father left for his work(he's a seaman by the way) last March everything started to suck! me and my siblings were left wid our cousin who has lived wid us since i was in elementary. lately, she seems to be an old maid who is at her menopause period or like she's having menstruation all the time..! She's really irritable, i can't blame her for being that way. maybe changing your plans when you're getting old (she's 28 or 29 n..) and not having a partner makes people sad. and we all know the effects of late marriages ryt? She used to work for a derma clinic but was forced to retire to take care of us. on the other hand, why did she left her work when we were asking her way back May of last year whether or not to get a maid to help her in the household chores? my point is why did she tell us that it's ok for her to do all the job w/o looking at the consequences that are to happen?
well, we don't talk that much now. i try to avoid her as much as possible eventhough we live on the same roof. i don't want to converse wid her because it turns to a debate. we have debated abt things like, my lil sis shud be allowed to play outside the house for at least once a week,etc. but she will always win and say that my sis don't want to play wid other kids anyway.. but how come my sis became so "papansin"?! specially when other pipol are around..
come to think of it i learned things from her, like: "don't care for the bad outcomes of your actions, you can always blame it on other things or other pipol." she's really good at projecting!! imagine the value of defense mechanisms!!!
here's an example: 1 tym she was goin to the bank or some credit cooperative to arrange some papers, she left at about 2pm and i was surprised that by 2:30pm she was back, i said to myself: "that was fast". then i found out that she has left the documents on my sister's bedroom. she went out blaming my sis saying: "si LJ kc nkita n pla n andun ung papel na kailngn ko di pa sinabi sa kin!" duh!?!?!??! hello!!??/%$#@!%&^* she's 7 y.o. what will she know abt that documents!!
i just want to let this one go..
joel grooved on the dance floor
@ 1:28 PM