this are my confessions x)*

just want to share it with y'all
Tuesday, December 20, 2005

i received this message last saturday am and i like you to read it and learn from it..

"Not 1 of us cn bring bck ysterday or shape tomorrow, only 2day is our ours and won't b ours 4 long, once it's gone it wl nvr b ours agen so make the best of everyday.. gud morning!"

un so just cherish every moment we share with every person..

joel grooved on the dance floor
@ 12:48 PM

the retreat and post-retreat life..
Monday, December 12, 2005

ANG SAYA TALAGA NUNG RETREAT! di ba iyak ako ng iyak, tears of joy un.. hehehe! thanks guys h! saya talaga.. pwede kjya ulitin yun mga one week nmn game ako.. i agree with orange sayang nga nmn kung keln konti nlng time saka lng tyo nagpatawaran, nagbabonding ng sobra pero sulitin na natin, enjoy lang! wala yang thesis and practicum, kayang-kaya yan! pero cympre with our proper efforts di ba?

so about post-retreat life naman.. ang gaan talaga ng pakiramdam lalo after nung confession ko, masarap pala maka-bonding si FR. Pompeyo.. feeling ko ang sarap nya kausapin tungkol sa buhay-buhay sayang di ako nakahingi ng advises about my problems at home.. speaking of.. kwento ko lang 'to..
nung pag-uwi ko that saturday after our retreat.. di pa ko nakakapagpahinga sa bhy.. bigla nag-ring phone.. sinagot ko kc wlng ibng tao sa 'min pumunta sa kasal cuz, bro and sis ko..
Ako: Hello
Caller: Hello! Joel..
Ako: (iniicp kung cno tumtwg, pamilyar boses eh..) Hello po?
Caller: kumusta? cnu ksma mo jan?
Ako: ako lang po.. (den n realize ko erpat ko pla kausap ko..) umalis po cla ate pumunta sa kasal..
blah..blah..
bsta nagulat ako kasi nun lang ulit ung tym na kinausap ako ng father ko ng matagalk sa phone na di ako pinagsa2bihan or sinasabing wag nyong bwistin ng kuya mo yung (bwisit mong cuz) mga ksma nyo sa bhy.. bsta usap kami kumustahan lang.. before nga pla yun naiicp ko n kung what sa2bihin ko sa father ko if not sa phone sa leter na pinpagawa sa 'tin nung retreat, na manga2twiran nko.. pero nwla lht un..
bsta ang gnda nung approach nya mejo pinaalalahanan lng ako bout duties ko sa bhy.. ang saya tlg nung kwentuhan nmin bsta kumustahan lng.. un.. tpos nung matatapos n yung conversation..
Papa: o cge mag-iingat nlng kyo jn.. ttwg nlng ulit cguro ko mamya pag di p ko inaantok..
Ako: Ah cge po.. yngat din po kayo jan (tpos nagddlwng isip ako, bhla n!) pa, i love you po.
... NR?!
tpos binaba na nya.. nagulat cguro.. pero pgktpos nun lalong gumaan ang pkirmdm ko ms mgaan pa after nung magconfess ako.. hay.. gnun pla yun.. and this weekend nkausap ko ulit cya kinumusta n nya graduating nyang anak.. tpos sa huli sumgot na cya.. saya! feel ko naiintindihan ko na father ko ngyn, and napatawad ko na sya.. iba n tlg ngyn, pati nga cuz ko mejo bumabait n, naexplain ko na rin kc sa papa ko yung syd nmin ng broi ko that nyt, saya tlg.. hope tuloy-tuloy na 'to..
pero can't erase the fact of my greatest failure so far.. saying "i love you" to my mom..
Ma, i love you po sayang di ko sinabi yun before ka operahan siguro mas nakalaban ka, my times pa rin po na naiicp ko that could have made a big difference pero all that time i thought to myself "bkit ko sa2bihin? magkakaron pa nmn ako ng chance in the future eh.." so here i am regretting what happened. ill try tlg to post about my mom sometime in the future..
and for you guys, here's an advice.. be sure not to regret those times that you have or you wish to do something but declined and settled to just let go of that opportunity..
and i remain..

joel grooved on the dance floor
@ 6:43 PM

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last time had confession @

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USHER IS MY MAN

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last time had confession @

6:43 PM

USHER IS MY MAN