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points of authority
Monday, August 02, 2004

i'm happy i've changed my being irritable and bad-tempered but still the problem at home is not solved, i'm afraid it wud never be..
most of us look forward to the weekend but i don't. it's not that i always want to be in skul and be wid my girl, well u can say that, but the greater reason is that at home there's no sign of hapiness. it's not easy losing a mom so to all of you, love your parents even if they suck, even if they are the most KJ parents that ever lived in this world. u won't miss the water till the well runs dry..
at first it was all going well but when my father left for his work(he's a seaman by the way) last March everything started to suck! me and my siblings were left wid our cousin who has lived wid us since i was in elementary. lately, she seems to be an old maid who is at her menopause period or like she's having menstruation all the time..! She's really irritable, i can't blame her for being that way. maybe changing your plans when you're getting old (she's 28 or 29 n..) and not having a partner makes people sad. and we all know the effects of late marriages ryt? She used to work for a derma clinic but was forced to retire to take care of us. on the other hand, why did she left her work when we were asking her way back May of last year whether or not to get a maid to help her in the household chores? my point is why did she tell us that it's ok for her to do all the job w/o looking at the consequences that are to happen?
well, we don't talk that much now. i try to avoid her as much as possible eventhough we live on the same roof. i don't want to converse wid her because it turns to a debate. we have debated abt things like, my lil sis shud be allowed to play outside the house for at least once a week,etc. but she will always win and say that my sis don't want to play wid other kids anyway.. but how come my sis became so "papansin"?! specially when other pipol are around..
come to think of it i learned things from her, like: "don't care for the bad outcomes of your actions, you can always blame it on other things or other pipol." she's really good at projecting!! imagine the value of defense mechanisms!!!
here's an example: 1 tym she was goin to the bank or some credit cooperative to arrange some papers, she left at about 2pm and i was surprised that by 2:30pm she was back, i said to myself: "that was fast". then i found out that she has left the documents on my sister's bedroom. she went out blaming my sis saying: "si LJ kc nkita n pla n andun ung papel na kailngn ko di pa sinabi sa kin!" duh!?!?!??! hello!!??/%$#@!%&^* she's 7 y.o. what will she know abt that documents!!

i just want to let this one go..

joel grooved on the dance floor
@ 1:28 PM

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last time had confession @

1:28 PM

USHER IS MY MAN